If things could have changed to the way I want and expected. If my parents know how much potential I have in the things I like, this referring to the "sport". No matter what sport it is, if it is related to strong competitive (physically or mentally), I always be one of the top. From small boy to big one. I have had always into sports. I always conquered them. 100 meter dash, high jump, basketball, badminton, Football. I loved every of em and I am sort of good at all of it. I am actually not quite of a humble man. HAHA.( Yes i knew i am just being overconfidence ) I have changed from of my major sport, basketball to badminton since i have encountered too many times of injuries on basketball and that's barely chances i can still be good and i knew it deep down in my mind. Badminton? the joyful is indescribable, Football was then occupied me throughout my primary school days and years. I always dream that i could represent my country on behalf of the sport that I am into.(from 7 years old the dream grows as i do) But my parents never think of putting me on a coach hand.
If my parents saw the good vision, they could have send me to sport schools, and if they do, my life would be completely different from now. Not blaming them for not discovering me. I cherished what I have and what I capable to do the things that I like. They are wealth enough to provide possibly all the things that I needed in this fucked up century.
If there's a "based on true story" book or movie that covered my entire life of story. It would be possibly darkness everywhere. I have grown matured day after day. I realized it through knowing myself how silly I used to be. How taking things for granted I used to be. But one fact I did acknowledged is how lucky I am to be a part in this world and everything everyone who around me. I appreciated my parents and God. I put my parents before the God because they are the existed God of mine, They are the one who having me born and raised me. Religion? That's my faith.
Trying to get an amazing life. But honestly I felt alone. The feeling was even stronger when my sister went away to China for her graduation matters. I missed you sister and it is only after a week of your departure.
Everyone looks on their identity at the very beginning of life: who am I and what I am gonna be. I'm sure you will find it on someday since you are so young.You will not always feel lost and family will be your strongest backbone.I miss you too dear:) at least I know there are somebody miss me :)
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